Is it a new beginning or is it d pavement to a newer and stronger disappointment???

A new thing has come my way.......

The anna univ rank list is published.... my rank 179.......

still loads of confusion... no clear idea if its dept wise or as a whole.......

And so yet again i m confused as to whether its a new ray oh hope or a new disappointmen.............

I Gave my BEST

I know dey were not better than me. i believe dey still are not better than me... but den why is my life in a lurch whilst dere's on top of d world..........

I hv always taken my best shot at life. always did d best I could.. but still He never thot i was deserving.....

In dat case the saying" you may not get wat u desire but u wud always get wat u deserve " doesnt hold true for me.........

N den miracles........ i believe in dem bcoz i hv seen ppl hving dem in dere lives... a sudden, unexpected transformation.. but y don i get a taste of it sum day????????? y does my life always changes for d worst??????????